I've said the unspoken, the forbidden. but still, I'm the 15-year-old kid who knows nothing better. It's futile, ain't it. screw those. I've got 300 monthly to keep up anyway.

He's a sissy ! Oh my god. He bloody is ! .

it felt good to run.
better than to say him or keep in touch with someone who doesn't want to.
I love my da jie. =)

Okay. so, I'm over at Hailey's. My wallet is at some mighty girl's house. Alright, life lately has been what you called ... . unpredictable. yeh. In a blink of eye, you could lose what you thought would always be there. & I miss nico already. People whom you want to grow old with, they go , but those who you don't want to hear about, they are everywhere. That is just how it goes, I guess. Results are disheartening. I just want to bang my head on the wall ceaselessly and fall flat. I want to get good, yes, I do. I'm going to study hard. Parents has been as what they always are. I hate. yeh, strong word indeed, but trust me, it came from my heart. I thought it's just one of them, but it's proven. It's proven that I couldn' rely on any. Whatever. I'm strong. At times, when I'm halfway to and end of the day, I just want to stop. Like literally stop, and skip to tomorrow. I don't know what I want now. A lot is going on,or nothing is . I'm confusing myself. Whatever it is, life .. sometimes... does suck. Argh. alright, whatever. bye.